originally, there was suppose to be a PW meeting. but it got cancelled. tomorrow's meeting is cancelled too! WOOTS! so i went out with mandy and minjia. N2 couldn't make it. =( got a new pair of shoes, a new but not so pretty bag.( but cheap. =)), 4 items from daiso and 4 blisters AWESOME! should have gotten socks just now. cos, the socks i have at home is too big for my shoe. shall go out and buy the socks some day.  finished my downloading of youtube videos for fahrenheit 
time to watch other dramas!

 yay! my biggest worry GP is OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol, i used geog stuff in the exam for the question. haha, love migration=)

i'm happy cos i'm meeting diane tomorrow!!!! yay!!!!!
i need to meet mandy and ms jean! i miss them tooooooooo!
next wed is math. cannot 掉一轻心！

新浪娛樂訊 台灣人氣組合飛輪海28日晚爲九龍灣國際展貿中心舉行《夢聚飛輪海》音樂會演出，下午彩排時，其中成員炎亞綸早前遇上交通意外弄傷腳，傷勢未愈，赴傷上 陣，要坐輪椅。拜神儀式上，炎亞綸堅持站起來以誠心上香，祈求演出順利，後來接受傳媒訪問時，炎亞綸才坐回輪椅。

　　炎亞綸韌帶受傷後，預計要一年時間才完全康複，表示當晚會站著獻唱，不能跳舞，總之會全力以赴。最近棒棒堂和飛輪海二邊的fans更在網上掀罵戰，吳 尊聞言後大表驚訝，並問道：“爲麽呢?”炎亞綸大方稱贊棒棒堂很好，希望大家可以一起努力，男生團組不一樣的，大家各有各fans，大家各有不同的天空!

　　問飛輪海可會擔心被棒棒堂把fans搶去?吳尊坦言：“不用擔心，否則只會更大壓力，最重要做好自己。”

　　有指是次音樂會是免費派票，入場觀衆人數有限，問飛輪海會否慮在紅館舉行個唱，讓更多觀衆可以看到他們的演出呢?他們說，紅館將維修，但大家拭目以以 待，預計明年便會來港開演唱會，辰亦儒說：“明年希望可以在港做一個收錢的演唱會，因爲買票可以有更多位給觀衆入場。”完成音樂會後，飛輪海第二天日馬不 停蹄趕往廣州工作。

虽然我这个project 没关系
我却感到了失落和失望
是我感情用事，自作多情，多管闲事吗？
干我屁事啊？

今天，我的一起被conductor 赶出去
solo 的部分太高了
我做不到
连我的教练都说那个很难了
我对自己产生了失望
我真得无法做到
多么想放弃
但我坚持下去
却毫无成果
算了

尝试写歌词：自由发挥，又意见，请留言

失望
泪水无法控制
咸咸的
热泪盈眶，落下了脸颊
失望永远战胜自己窝囊的心灵

一天的失落并非一切
最大的打击
无人看见
一次的失败
跌倒了爬起来
多次的失败
腿早就断了，缝不回来

眼神中，
你看得见吗？
惭愧和脆弱
你听得见吗？
无需回答
只需明白
在我的世界里
一定会有你
的存在。

2007.08.26【中國時報】吳尊頭痛難下床 炎亞綸膝傷將開刀

飛輪海工作滿檔，成員接連掛病號。炎亞綸右腿膝蓋受傷，無法跑 跳，接著又因腸胃炎而發高燒，但他仍抱病出席昨天飛輪海代言的勁舞大賽；吳尊則因偏頭痛無法起床，被工作人員拖去看醫生。有偏頭頭困擾的吳尊，前晚拍完 MV已頭痛欲裂，昨醫生診斷是感冒引起的嚴重偏頭痛，建議他放鬆休息，他只好透過電話致歉，汪東城笑他：「沒關係，愛吃的吳尊在家多吃點，很快就會好 了。」
炎亞綸昨苦撐全場，不過他最掛心受傷的右膝，他預計下周一住院、開刀，他表示，之前做核磁共振檢查時，因機器聲音很大，受檢者會戴上耳機，原耳機傳來鄧麗 君的歌，但音樂忽然停止，他聽著機器的巨響，相當害怕，又不能動，等了好一會兒，又有音樂響起，沒想到竟是吳克群的〈殘廢〉，讓他哭笑不得。

 

大东,亚纶和禹哲参加了<大小爱吃>的录制

以下轉自PTT飛輪海看板　

作者: catking (catking) 看板: Fahrenheit
標題: 大小愛吃...
時間: Fri Aug 10 19: 15: 44 2007


昨天 大東 亞綸 禹哲去錄了大小愛吃...
大東做的是糖醋里肌
亞綸是做壽喜燒
禹哲做大阪燒
　　　　　　　　
我因為時間的關係只看了亞綸的後半段做菜和禹哲做菜的部份
亞綸一直被虧是大少爺
禹哲在手忙腳亂做菜時...亞綸只出了嘴幫忙而已...呵呵
當輪到禹哲做菜時...大東硬是選那件男性象徵那件圍裙給禹哲穿
穿著這件圍裙...大東和禹哲有演一小段的戲 看到大東整個人很害羞(哈哈)
後來禹哲換下這件圍裙穿另一件白色護士圍裙時..
大東又覺得禹哲的造型他不滿意...又要禹哲再加上紅色蕾絲圍裙
所以禹哲一共穿了兩件圍裙在身上!
　　　　　　　　
大東做菜時就是穿這件紅色蕾絲圍裙做菜...
亞綸穿的是有女生胸部的那件圍裙做菜...
由於我看到的已經是後半段了...看亞綸是還滿自在的!!
亞綸還爆料說...因為之前ELLA都會對他們"偷桃"
結果亞綸就...就還手打ELLA的胸部...(羞)
是真的有打到喔...不是做樣子而已!!
　　　　　　　　
三道菜是由他們自己來評分...分數最高的是亞綸,再來是禹哲,最後是大東
在節目裡亞綸和大東有清唱了一小段新歌!!
至於什麼時候播勒...我忘了問...他們去上大小愛吃會有上下兩集!!

exams are coming
more white hair, more balding
today, attended my first bio tuition
okay we didn't do bio, we did chem
he's a nice teacher, his name is..... erm...... chang liang i think
anyway
it was fruitful and i learnt something

thank you, diane's mother for giving me so many things
the thing is, i feel like i don't know how to accept it as you know , the awkwardness between me and her mother
but anyway, thank you
i think they misunderstood what my mom said about gays

recount
i asked my mom whats her opinion of gays/ lesbians
she said that she think that those people have phsycological problems and so on
then i disagreed
then she ask me is it because diane influenced me
as in thinking in such a way
then i said no
i said that diane influence me to be more open, to have my own opinion
thats a good thing
thats why i start asking her about this topic
i want to see her opinion

so don't get me wrong okay?!
oh and support the crescent GE team
they are so stressed out
so i decided to help them
after all, no harm
and if there is another pair of hands to help,
things will get done faster
so they must jia you and win!

飛輪海炎亞綸 被爆休學躲二一

2007.08.11【蘋果日報】飛輪海炎亞綸 被爆休學躲二一
转新闻区

「飛輪海」炎亞綸就讀文化大學新聞系3年級，最近被同學爆料，他上個學期只有英文過關，其餘都被當，肯定是怕被「二一」（指1/2的學分被當掉，有遭退學的危機）才決定休學。

決定轉學
炎亞綸經紀人陳慧瑛表示，他學期未結束前就已辦休學，沒有「二一」的問題，不過由於課業壓力太大，他已決定轉學，不當文大生。
炎亞綸的同學爆料指出，他大三選擇廣播組，但很少看到他來上課，有時早上8時的課，他來了也都在睡覺，陳慧瑛解釋，他之前拍八大綜合台《終極一家》太累，常凌晨4、5時才收工，還硬撐著去上課。
文化新聞系大三課業壓力最重，暑假還要實習，他根本無力兼顧，下學期未結束前就休學，並決定轉學，他還沒決定考哪所學校。



2007.08.11【星洲互动】 S.H.E不挺．炎亚纶新戏停摆

x family- gtv at 9pm
the link to watch the show the same time as taiwan!
THIS SITE HAS EVERYTHING
taiwan channels, korean, japanese, hong kong, china, everything
so for da dong, ya lun and yi ru fans, take note of the link and go watch it at 9pm!

the main site:
www.8000tv.com

the gtv site:
http://www.8000tv.com/html/61/104/1044.htm
remember to go watch!

seriously i suck
i mean my life is going haywire
i am trying to be happy
to erase all the unhappiness
the stress away
its not easy
look at my results
both failed
i bet i am going to fail my chinese and bio paper too
i grew up in a comparative environment
where i compare with everyone
i was born in this environment
not something that i can help
whenever my results get lower than my friends or my expectations
my mood just hit rock bottom
sure my studying methods may be wrong
but its not like i have not tried other methods as well
god
why is it so freaking had for me to attain a good result for my work
now, parents pressurizing me
i don't know how to break away
on sunday, my parents commented that i am fat
that i have a big butt
fine
i admit
but it go me damn pissed and stressed
damn, just.....,.....................................................................................................

don't know why
recently, my mood swings got to the extremes
from friends, to family to band to everywhere
i can't control it
damn if i know how, it probably wouldn't have caused so much trouble and .......
its my fault
maybe its stress from family, disappointment with my studies, lost in friendship, fury in band
i don't know
not that i am trying to avoid solving the problems but i don't know how

for today, went to SMACK at VIVO CITY
it sucks
no climax
the music is like blah
out of tune
i am critical to music
especially after i trained my ears to be more sensitive
got damn pissed with the bloody loud music
there enters the mood swing
damn
the crowdless place for this event brought no climax
it made me feel tired
feel like crap
i went there no for flag day
but there it goes
they hand you a tin and go like go ask people to donate
then diane & deviana got worried
i didn't meant to
feel that its my fault so go candy empire to get things for them
though pocket got a big hole
but its for my friends so no biggie
lalalalalalaalalalaalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
okay wired out here now

not too bad though=)
freaking tired today
only slept for 5 hours
hah, during a math consultation, i'm a teacher
though a lousy one. hehe
relatives coming over for steamboat
haix......

http://www.kishi-mushi.blogspot.com/
thank you divvy
its not your fault=)

Listen to the song here in my heart
a melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within
Its only beginning to find release

Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

[chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed Aside or turned
Into your own
[ Listen lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
All 'cause you won't listen

[chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start, but I will complete

Now I am done believing you
You don't know not what I am feeling
I'm more than what you've made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I got to find my own - my own

12 hours passed since that incident
damn i tried to study
but it keeps coming back to my head
during physics test, it came floating back to my head
i thought i could handle it
but i thought it wrong
during chinese test, it came back too
damn. i hate myself
i have fucking stupid life
when i confronted her
my heart was thumping
ears were red
i was so freaking scared that i would screw it up
i did
i really did
fuck man
the coldness in her eyes
it froze my heart
tears already crowd around my eyes
i pushed it back
i was determined not to cry
not to succumb to the coldness
i failed
damn
but she don't read here anyway
she won't know

today, i finally cannot take it anymore, i broke down
its just that there are things that she don't understand, i don't know how to explain verbally so i cried
how i hope she reads my livejournal, so that she can understand why and what is happening
i only want to say to her that,
sometimes, things don't only revolves around you.
sorry for telling you that you need to change but not where.
so now i tell you.
its just that people around you deviana, zhi yi and me all experience the same thing.
you neglect us sometimes but its getting worst.
i know you have your own life, your own circle of friends, your stress you have from your family, studies, all the project that need to be done. i know thats why i hold back for so long.
do you realize that people are drifting away from you?
please, understand. i am trying to help you
why?
because you are my friend. someone i cherish, i care about and the friendship, the love, the care and concern
do you feel it?
you told me that when you are pissed, leave you alone
i have made changes in my life to adapt to the new environment, the new friendships, the new trust
you told me to stop using singlish for smsing, i changed
you told me speak up for myself
i did
you told me to not find excuses to not do things
i tried. still in the process
you told me many things. i tried to change.
thats how i want you to adapt to everyone, the environment not the other way round.
things don't just revolves around you.
do you know what your friends are saying?
they said you are self centered, thats why you lost friendships.
i know, you are stressed out by everything. thats why when i feel neglected, i think of reasons to feel better, to not think that you are neglecting me
whenever you feel sad, i know i am useless cos i cannot help you. all i can do is to give you a pat at your back or be by your side to let you feel that you are not alone
you told me that when you are pissed, leave you alone. i did.
diane, i really don't want to lose this friendship and i won't give up.
in my new year resolution, i said that i would cherish my friends around me
thats what i am doing.
i know this may sound cheesy, but please, allow your self some time to think.
i will always be waiting for your answer
you wondered why n2 just left without a word, and ignored you all the way
now i think you have an idea why.
but i will not do that
i know the hurt felt when this happens
you know that i don't believe my religion
but for friendship, i prayed to his for your health, for your ankle, for our friendship
do you know how many people said how stupid i was to keep quiet and not do anything?
but i don't think so cos, i want you to think. to think of what happened
although you may seem so headstrong in doing things, there is still weakness within you.
that time you cried during PE about n2. it cut my heart deeply.
i told myself to not let it happen again.
in the previous post, i said how much i enjoy fridays
you know why?
cos thats the only time you don't neglect me and actually note my presence.
you don't find a friend only at times of need but cherish them.
today, 1st august, i have done many things
one is my feelings
and next is the band thing.
its something i hav accomplished and i feel good
diane please understand, please listen.
i don't want you to lose your friends
i don't want you to undergo another torturous friendship.
listen please for once.i am afraid to lose this friendship
i don't want it all to happen again. what happened in the past four years was enough. all comes back to the same thing.
god please help.
i am worried i lose this friendship.
diane, you don't know how much i want to help
how it hurts when this thing happens
you know you are a important friend in my life
i confided stuff that i never did with anyone else
thats why......

 characteristic of me:
stupid,
gullible,
kind,
lame,
annoying
,caring,
ignorant,
 insignificant,
 loser,
pathetic,
idiot
.......

i wanted to post this very long ago, just that, i thought that i don't have a need to
sometimes i just want someone to understand me, to know me.
so far no one does
no one knows the real me
even myself
i know, i'm a loser
i know that so long ago
people don't have to emphasis it
the fact that i am stupid
its a fact too
but there's no need to bring it up always
sometimes, i just need attention
thats something i never get
if anyone, really anyone notice, i have 2 kind of personality
one lame next loner
every time in school, i put on a "mask " i act all happy, lame
once there is no friends, there goes the spark
i only post this here cos no one reads
the only one that knows is diane but i doubt she read so no matter
there are things that i wish to do
i don't know what and don't know how
i love fridays
i get to talk and really be myself
i told myself to not be like before and cry
i really do now
but i guess i failed
i shall just..... do something lame
fits me anyway

my friends
diane: sometimes i don't know what you are thinking. i don't need you to bare your heart to me but at least.... i don't know how to phrase it. thank you for whatever you do. when you ask me to talk about happy stuff, i can' think of any really. those moments of laughter, of happiness only lasted for a few seconds.but its enough. i cannot and don't know how to say my feelings out loud. only by typing i can talk.i am grateful that u are my friend. really.just that the faults you know you have, pls try to change. i know you tried. the trauma you experienced last year was enough. and now n2....but to tell you the truth, you are a great friend. a really great friend.... thank you for being with me at certain times of needs and i can say that you are the first friend that i really can talk to, really care about and everything. stop stressing everything to yourself. it won't help. talk. it helps. there are different people that you can talk to if you don't want to talk about it with me but just don't stress yourself that much.
mandy: i don't know you well enough but you are someone i can have fun with and be silly and not care about what will happen. i enjoyed the time we had together although we don't share the common interest and thoughts. i always think that you are great with advise and i am not wrong. although we don't have the connection or the spark, but really thanks for standing beside me when i need a friend. i admire your talent in art and i remember telling amelia once that i want that kind of talent. but hah.... guess i'm not that lucky. at times, you may seem distant, i don't understand you but the chemistry of silliness makes me laugh like shit. thank you;)
zhiyi and deviana: you all are people that i can joke with. you make me feel happy, and carefree. zhiyi is forever so willing to help so willing to do things although it requires her to go another extra mile. i don't know you two that well either but i know that you guys are very important in my life. i feel lucky to have you people as friends really

when i step into 3s3, i felt the atmosphere was so strange. i was so worried i cannot get along with anyone, with everyone. i guess i'm proven wrong. friends are for me to cherish and for me to seek. i don't feel that i've taken a friendship for granted. i cherish but i know theres a limit to everything. respect to friends is important to remain or to attain a friendship.
thats why, after thinking so much, i keep looking forward to the trip next year. although if i had choosen, i would choose taiwan but friends first. i want to go with friends and to enjoy whatever there. i am willing to change to adapt to the new environment and not stuck in the loner attitude. i don't want to stay in my own little circle. its doesnt help.thats why, i type things out, i start learning basic japanese, i start reading mangas. this is my sacrifice to friendship. i am not forcing myself but rather enjoying myself as a try a new me.
hope i succeed this time.

i want it but damn! its only available in Taiwan now. only coming to Singapore at the end of the month.
they have a 1hr DVD too. i lead a sad life.

，这看起来十分肉麻，但这都是打从我的心里话。
我只能说，你是我一个非常珍惜的好朋友，但是，说实在的，我其实还很不了解你。
我想借这个机会，向你说出我的一些感觉吧。
要说不满，其实倒是没有，但是对于你的忽冷忽热态度，我有时候有些受不了。
比方说，当你和你其他朋友时，我通常会感到有些寂寞， 寂寞不在于你再跟你朋友说而我没有加入，但寂寞在于，我已经尽全力去和你的朋友沟通，尽全力多参与，但， 还是无法加入。有时，以当你的朋友出现，我就似乎不存在了。我不是很自私，但，这只是一些我的看法罢了。

我十分感激你，在我脚伤时，你在一旁帮助我。 我承认，我并不是一个很好的朋友，但我在尽力当中。对我而言，像你这个朋友，我很怕失去。我希望你能把你的一些不满，说出来，让我有一些改进得的空间。
sometimes, when you need some space, i hope you will tell me.
i am doing my best to understand you and still trying
hope that when you have matters you want to talk about, u can talk to me
i will try to not be too irritating and understand when u need space and you know.......
i know this all sound very cheesy and cliche but you know what, this is the only way i can explain and tell you my feelings from the bottom of my heart as i am not very good with words.i hope that through tis way we can be better friends and know each other better?
hope that now, you can understand me and everything
since now is the season for bad results and everything, i hope that if i say anyhing harsh, u won't take it in to heart
if you find me too irritating, then tell me to back off, so that i know at least what to do
thanks for being my friend=)